Stuck in an Endless Cycle of Relapsing and Depression

By | 2017-08-25T17:34:19+00:00 July 30th, 2017|mental health|

I am so sick of constantly relapsing. Most people experience at least one period of depression in their lives, but it is often situational. My depression is cyclical, and has affected my life up to several times a year since the age of fifteen. It can last anywhere from a couple of weeks to a couple of months at a time. I am sick and tired of relapsing again after I feel like I am finally getting better. I honestly feel like I am stuck in an endless cycle of depression. Since changing the dosage of my medications in late [...]

Top 5 Attractions in Cartagena

By | 2017-07-28T23:48:43+00:00 July 25th, 2017|travel inspiration|

The old colonial port city of Cartagena, Colombia, lies lazy and lethargic under a heavy blanket of pervasive Caribbean humidity. Long, labyrinthine alleyways wind between grand, multi-storey buildings coated in ivy leaves and perfumed flowers stretched across their brightly coloured faces and iron-wrought balconies. To explore in Cartagena is to brave the sweltering heat and to be rewarded with colourful streets brimming with local vendors, restaurants hidden behind shop fronts, and tiny squares surrounded by colonial architecture. These are the best sights that the city has to offer. Palacio de la Inquisición The Palace of the Inquisition is the former [...]

Blogging is Seriously Hard Work

By | 2017-09-05T20:04:28+00:00 July 22nd, 2017|mental health|

Blogging is seriously hard work. I’ve hit a major roadblock when it comes to being inspired to write, and so have deliberated over several half-finished posts for weeks. I work in short, sharp bursts of energy that mean I can finish an entire blog post in one hour, and then not write again for four days. Unfortunately, my perfectionism starts to kick in, and then I start to feel like a failure for not being a non-stop creation machine. Blogging courses recommend posting at least three times a week when starting out, and I feel disheartened that I don’t have [...]

How To Handle a Long-Distance Relationship While Travelling

By | 2017-08-25T17:32:59+00:00 July 18th, 2017|mental health|

When I met my current boyfriend, I had a one-way ticket to Buenos Aires and no intention of entering into a relationship, let alone a long-distance relationship. I had plans of travelling for a year by myself and working my way around South America. Three things happened: I realised that I didn’t have enough money saved, I had a major mental health relapse, and I fell deeply in love. I’m notoriously bad at long-distance relationships. I’d tried them twice before my current boyfriend, and they always ended the same way. I got caught up in the excitement of travelling alone [...]

Acknowledging My White Privilege in Southeast Asia

By | 2017-08-25T17:33:06+00:00 July 11th, 2017|ethical travel|

I’m considered exceptionally beautiful in Southeast Asia. Multiple local men stare at me as I walk down the street, and I have been propositioned by men several years older than I. My Thai cooking teacher referred to me as a “supermodel”, because I have the long legs that Thai women do not. I don’t attract this attention at anywhere near the same level at home in Australia. I get it in Southeast Asia because I am white. This is a characteristic of my white privilege; I am the beauty ideal because of my skin colour. Pale skin is one of the [...]

Reasons Why a Diagnosis is So Important

By | 2017-10-16T12:45:37+00:00 July 7th, 2017|Uncategorized|

A psychiatrist didn’t give me a diagnosis for borderline personality disorder (BPD) until I was detained in hospital on suicide watch in October last year. They called it voluntary admission, but if I had refused to speak with the psychiatrist, I would have been held against my will. I suspected for many years that I had BPD, but many mental health professionals are reluctant to suggest the diagnosis because of the stigma attached. I had assumed that you needed to show all the symptoms of BPD to qualify for the diagnosis. Therefore, I assumed that because I don’t regularly dissociate, [...]

How To Be (Mostly) Sober in a Society Obsessed with Alcohol

By | 2017-08-15T15:58:43+00:00 July 4th, 2017|mental health|

Alcohol is poison. It numbs your brain and your senses, and creeps into your brain to whisper lies in your ear. When you are living with chronic mental illness, drinking alcohol is one of the most harmful things that you can do, and you should try to eradicate it from your life.  Alcohol makes me stupider, more impulsive, and more vulnerable to the negative thoughts that constantly swirl around my brain. I have burst into tears or started heavily dissociating while drinking, more times than I can count. Drinking alcohol doesn’t only leave me with a dry mouth and a [...]