What It’s Like To Quit Antidepressants Cold Turkey

By | 2017-12-05T15:47:52+00:00 December 5th, 2017|mental health|

Disclaimer: please do not take this article as medical advice. Please visit your GP or seek your own information if you are looking to quit your antidepressants, especially if you choose cold turkey.   I first went on antidepressants around three years ago because I felt completely disconnected from my body. I felt like I was in a constant daze, felt no emotions towards anyone or anything around me, and couldn’t break through the heaviness in my brain to take any positive steps. Two weeks ago, I decided to quit antidepressants for ironically much the same reasons. I’d felt severely [...]

The Difference Between Depression and Sadness

By | 2017-11-27T19:13:03+00:00 November 27th, 2017|mental health|

The majority of my friends struggle with depression and/or anxiety. My partner also struggles with periods of recurring depression. Either consciously or subconsciously, I have surrounded myself with people who understand and can relate to my experiences of mental illness. This means I regularly forget that a lot of people do not experience mental illness, and may think that depression is a form of sadness. Depression is often simplified as a period of extended sadness, likely because it’s the easiest explanation. Sadness is an emotion that everyone has experienced at one point or another, and so it is relatable and [...]

A Guide To Introvert Travel in an Extrovert’s World

By | 2017-12-07T14:32:00+00:00 November 18th, 2017|mental health|

We live in an extrovert’s world. In job interviews, you need to be bubbly, social, and demonstrate your social prowess to stand out as a candidate. If you want to forge your own career, then you need to be adept at networking and have maximum confidence in yourself and your abilities. At my age, the majority of social interaction is based around socialising on a large scale: parties, going out drinking, and group events. There seems to be little space for introverts like me, who want to be alone a good proportion of the time. The difference between being introverted [...]

Lessons After 1 Year Since Being on Suicide Watch

By | 2017-11-10T16:53:12+00:00 November 10th, 2017|mental health|

Trigger warning: this article contains graphic descriptions of suicide, self harm, and substance abuse. On the 31st of October 2016, I was put on suicide watch. I thought that I was losing my mind. I had spent two or three days feeling manic and suicidal, and like my emotions were spiralling out of control. I was worried I was just going insane and that I would never feel good things again. I felt a constant undercurrent of manic energy and tears were persistently collecting behind my eyes. My thoughts were always racing, and all I could think about was how [...]

Rape Isn’t Like How It’s Shown on TV

By | 2017-10-10T16:49:00+00:00 October 10th, 2017|mental health|

Trigger warning: this article contains graphic descriptions of rape. Popular media has very specific ideas about how rape is portrayed. The victim is female and the rapist is always male. The assault is violent and the victim resists physically and usually verbally. The victim is hyper aware that she is being raped and is highly distressed both during and immediately after the act. I have seen this played out countless times in TV shows and movies. It is incredibly distressing and triggering for me to watch, and yet it barely resembles my rape. It took me until the next day [...]

Obsessed with Control

By | 2017-12-07T14:39:12+00:00 September 28th, 2017|mental health|

It’s been almost a month since I last published anything, and while a lot of it has to do with writer’s block, it’s also related to my obsession with control and perfection. I feel like ideas need to be perfectly formed in my head before I can put them to paper, or else I feel an overwhelming sense of inferiority and incompetence. The longer I go without writing, the more anxiety it brings me, and the more avoidant I become. I’ve decided to bite the bullet and just throw this out there, and try to regain access to my creativity. [...]

I Gave Up Materialism for Travel

By | 2017-11-02T21:23:56+00:00 September 6th, 2017|mental health|

Materialism is sold to us in the form of aspirational lifestyles with luxury goods, fancy cars, and expensive houses. Success is presented as possession of many items of high dollar value, and this is supposed to make us happy. The increasing obsession with celebrities and their lifestyles places an importance on both wealth and the outward displays of wealth. This materialism is sold to us constantly through advertising companies that need to suck people into black holes of spending. As a teenager, I absolutely loved shopping for clothes. I would always save up for after-Christmas sales, and bought new clothes [...]

Every Day You Must Choose Recovery Over Self Destruction

By | 2017-12-07T14:18:18+00:00 August 31st, 2017|mental health|

Trigger warning: this article contains graphic descriptions of drug usage and addiction. I miss recreational drugs a lot. Whenever anyone tells a story about doing cocaine, my body reacts instantly. Within half a second, my heart rate elevates and starts beating out of my chest. My muscles tense in anticipation, and I feel a rush of adrenaline through my chest and stomach. Images of using flash repeatedly in front of my eyes and my brain tells me over and over that it wouldn’t be so bad to start taking drugs again. I haven’t touched drugs since October 2016 and yet [...]

What is Splitting? – Living with BPD

By | 2017-08-26T15:04:43+00:00 August 26th, 2017|mental health|

Whenever I break up with a boyfriend, or end a friendship, my heart becomes instantly cold towards them. It’s almost as if all my memories of them become fuzzy around the edges, and I feel nothing towards them anymore. I used to think that this made me a monster, but I can now see it as a defense mechanism. This is one aspect of splitting, which is a symptom of borderline personality disorder (BPD), also known as emotional dysregulation disorder. Splitting is when you experience extreme black and white or ‘all or nothing’ thinking. Most people experience this to some [...]

How to Incorporate Mindfulness in Travel

By | 2017-08-23T18:09:05+00:00 August 23rd, 2017|mental health|

I really struggle to live in the present moment. I notice that my mind is often preoccupied with either the past or the future, and often stressing about things that are outside of my control. If you’re like me, you will often do things on autopilot and never really pay attention to the details of your actions. You will forget entire sections of your day, because your brain was focused on things outside of the present moment. This is why mindfulness is so important, and I find especially that incorporating mindfulness in travel is essential. Travel is a multi-sensory experience [...]